Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Thursday, 16 July 2015

Little Women - Louisa May Alcott



I've read Little Women so many times, and watched the film (the Susan Sarandon/Claire Danes/Winona Ryder/Cristian Bale/Kirsten Dunst/Gabriel Byrne one) almost as often. In fact, after I've written this I think I will go watch it again. I can never get bored of it, it will never age for me. 

It's a story of sisterhood, unbreakable love, unimaginably painful losses and moving on. 

There are four March sisters, living in a small house in relative poverty, next to the grand house where Laurie, Jo's childhood friend, is being brought up by his very wealthy, very posh grandfather. There is Jo, Beth, Amy and Meg... I'll introduce you..

Jo March is the tomboyish heroine. A girl lost in a society obsessed with fortunes and posture and pretty dresses and coming out parties. Jo is none of these. She is loyal, she is proud, she is smart. Jo has a boisterous naughty streak to her which she normally comes to regret. She's playful and pretty. Whilst other girls her age are practising their wifely skills to attract suitors, Jo is chasing about like a boy with Laurie. They are inseperable. When she is at home, Jo is found in the attic room writing stories to entertain her sisters. Their childhood is taken up with the sisters enacting Jo's plays, it makes them all happy. The girls grow up through the years and it becomes obvious that Jo is attracting unwanted advances from gentleman whilst attending the social occasions she cannot escape from. Laurie jealously witnesses this, and tries to secure her hand in marriage by rushing to propose to her. Jo is scared and confused. She knows she loves Laurie (or Teddy as she calls him), but she's young, and she isn't one of these girls that has been dreaming of marriage. He has taken her by surprise. And she tries to explain that she does love him dearly but it is too late. Laurie's pride and feelings are hurt and he becomes hostile towards her and disappears back to his house where she can hear him tormentedly playing the piano. She decides she needs to escape, so she leaves to earn money for the family, working as a nanny in New York. 

Whilst working, Jo writes many stories and walks them round the publishers, only to be told no one wants to publish "fairystories". Jo is dejected. She falters in her resolve to write what is true to her, and starts to write pirate stories about blood and gore under then pen-name Joseph March, and, go-figure, she gets her stories in the newspapers. 

She is working on in this vain when she meets Professor Bhaer (I think he is German not sure). The professor is quite a bit older than Jo and not classically good-looking. Everyone reading the book can understand this meeting is significant. But both Jo and the professor are shy. So they edge closer, her learning from him, him being dazzled by this woman who is like no other. He takes her to the opera, but it is in Italian and she can't understand, so he translates for her. They are sitting so close, they almost kiss then someone clatters something backstage and the moment is lost. The next morning (they board in the same house) he challenges her on why she writes fantasy. He tells her she should be brave and write from the heart. My favourite line of his: "there is nothing in here of the woman I am privileged to know. You can do better than this... If you have the courage to write it". She spikes, I think because she knows what he is saying is true. They argue and she runs back to her room. Angry. Professor Bhaer gets called away. Jo begins her novel. It is about the events I have described above and am about to describe below... 

Beth, beautiful, sweet, homely Beth. Beth is pretty much to good for this earth, seeing the absolute best in everyone, if angels could take human form, they would be just like Beth. She is every sisters' confidant. Never judging or taking sides. She takes no interest in boys and parties or quarrels. She is everyone's favourite sister. Beth catches scarlet fever on one of her visits to the poor houses and, whilst very sick, narrowly survives. (Any F.R.I.E.N.D.S. fans reading this, this is where Joey gets to and has to put the book in the freezer because he is scared she's going to die) (lol). But, as Louisa May Alcott narrates to us, no one knew that the scarlett fever had weakened her heart. 

Laurie, after months of self destructive self pity, happens across Amy in Europe. Lots of flirting ensues, but back then it would have been 'courting'. Laurie needs to move fast as Amy is expecting a proposal from his friend Fred Vohnn any day soon. A drunken Laurie accuses Amy of pursuing Fred for his money, then comes some of my favourite lines.. Amy: "I have always known I would not marry a pauper", Laurie: "just as I have always known I should be part of the March family", Amy: "I do not wished to be loved for my family", Laurie: "just as Fred Vohnn does not wish to be loved for his 50,000". Raaaaa Laurie. ANYWAY... Laurie marries Amy. And I have never been able to forgive Amy. I know Jo turned Laurie's proposal down, something which in itself threw me. I, along with Laurie, had been convinced that Jo had been made for Laurie and he for her. So how could Amy, who has grown up seeing her sister and Laurie so inseperable, so destined, even start to think he should be with her if not Jo. And I will never understand Laurie and his ability to swap his lifelong love for one sister so easily, so completely, to the other. If I had been Jo I could never have forgiven such a betrayal from a sister and I could never even look at Laurie again. But Jo is a better soul than I am, and, after the initial shock she embrasses Laurie as her brother. But their friendship is broken.

I realise I haven't mentioned Meg. To be honest she bores me. Meg is boring. She even marries a boring man - so boring I can't even remember his name. It might be Eric, but it could just as well be anything else. She never says anything good. She is just tooooo boring. I am secretly pleased when Jo accidentally scorches off some of her hair. That's the most exciting thing that happens to her. I would not mind if a rewrite of Little Women ditched her as a character. The book is too good to waste time on Meg. So I won't either...

Jo recieves a telegram urging her to come home to a very sick Beth. She arrives just in time to speak with Beth once more, before Beth says my favourite (and last) line of hers "I don't mind, I was never like the rest of you, with big plans and leaving home. Why did you all want to leave? I love being home. Now I am the one going forward. I am not scared, I can be brave like you". And with that she's gone. Jo collapses onto her sister, inconsolable. She's already lost Laurie. Now she's lost an even bigger part of her, her Beth. 

Jo stays behind to help her mother prepare for the funeral. Amy doesn't even bother coming (waste-of-space sister) (so what if Aunt March is bedridden this is your sister's funeral b*tch). Jo finishes her novel surrounded by the memories of her sisters and lost friendships, then sends it to Professor Bhaer, who shows it to his publisher friends.

Professor Bhaer, lost in New York without Jo, has made the journey to her family home. He loves her. Although in his awkward-bumbly way he has never expressed this to her directly. Jo and the professor have always skirted around their feelings, their eyes betraying their hearts meaning, but neither brave enough to put air and voice to them, to allow them to be heard, and then cherished and secure in the knowledge they feel the same way. So he arrives and speaks to Hannah (the maid) who carelessly tells him Miss March has gone to marry Mr Laurie. (WTF Hannah, you fool, don't you know what he now thinks?!), so the Professor leaves a package for Jo, leaves his congratulations and disappears back out the door heading for the train. (P.s. I now think he's an idiot. He can't be that emotionally blind that he can't know of and feel Jo's absolute love for him, everything she does she does yearning for his acceptance). ANYWAY... Jo bounds through the door, fresh picked wild flowers abundant in her arms and a flush on her face and mud on her boots. Hannah says Mr fox or Mr bear came and Jo freezes with excitement. She opens the package and it is her manuscript. Her Professor Bhaer has got her novel published. Hannah then tells Jo he left after hearing that Miss March and Mr Laurie were getting married. Jo tears out the door chasing her professor down. It is raining now and as she turns into a country lane (you know the tree tunnel ones) she see him in the distance. She yells at him in her "ladylike" way and he stop. Slowly turns round. She races to him. They stand there in the rain, under his umbrella whilst they clear up the confusion that it's her sister getting married not her. Then it's time for my favouritest line in the book... The Professor: "But I have nothing to offer (i.e. He is poor), my 
hands are empty". Jo takes his hands in hers, and says "they're not now". 

Oh I love love love this book. It's only in that last line that I get why she turned Laurie down even though she loved him so. She was never his. She is, and always was, Fredrick's (Professor Bhaer). 

Sunday, 28 June 2015

The Peculiar Life of a Lonely Postman - Denis Thériault


I'm going to really struggle to portray the beauty of this book, the many layers of storyline, the amount of times it surprised me, what it taught me and how it left me. But. I will try.

Firstly, I think this book is seriously mis-named. Unless you look at the very first layer of storyline. If you read it and focus only on the superficial, then yes, this is a story about a lonely postman, job done.

But this is not about a lonely postman. It is about yearning for life. It is about obsession. It is about betrayal. It's about learning. It is about the better you and the better me. It is about love. It's about connecting with someone on the deepest level, to where circumstances happen that could only occur because it was pre-destined. Meant-to-be. Fate.

It is about inevitability.

I'm not a big poetry fan, (although everyone should know E.E. Cummings' poem 'I carry your heart with me'), so at times I struggled a bit with the Japanese poetry. If you struggle with poetry, persevere. This is a book not to give up on. It has a purpose, trust the author he's a true storyteller.

The most beautiful part of the book is in the reader learning about and falling into the world of an 'enso'. And I can't explain this without ruining the book for you.

I'm torn with actually reviewing this book and telling the story, which will then rob you of the experience of the surprises and could never do the book the justice it deserves. Or just saying READ THIS BOOK. It is only 100 pages. I don't know how he fitted it all in. 

I'm going to do something in between. I'm going to just shower you with words that the book made me feel, think, learn, in the hope that I convey a scent of the book without exposing it's secrets.

Curious. Intimate. Stalker. Friendship. Trust. Passion. Immersed. Jealousy. Betrayal. Secrets. Uncomfortable. Raunchy. Tender. Oblivious. Intrigued. Poetic. 

Enough already. Just read it! Ok?










Saturday, 30 May 2015

One Day - David Nicholls



Emma Morley is smart, kind, geeky looking, funny and is one of those girls that you know will work hard until success comes to her.

Dexter Mayhew would be smart (if he put his mind to it), can be kind (but can also be cuttingly unthoughtful), is anti-geek (think lad, think extrovert, think centre-stage, think big-head), is popular (in-crowd, TV presenter, drink, drugs, girls, rocknroll) and is one of those guys that success clings to without deserving or earning it.

They are pretty much opposites. 

They are also in love with each other. 

It would just be great if someone would tell Dexter this.

Em and Dex, best friends, practice an annual tiptoe dance around their feelings each year on St Swithens Day. Dexter inevitably has a new beautiful girlfriend in tow, a new gig in town, and increasingly less time and consideration for Emma. Emma, after academic success, is struggling to find her feet in the real world, still single, still geeky and getting a little bit fat.

Fast forward four years. St Swithens Day...

Em and Dex, best friends... Emma is a successful teacher. Emma is dating, unsuccessfully. Dexter is perpetually drunk, a washed up TV has-been, only he hasn't realised this yet. He loses Emma's good opinion and she breaks away from him. They are both heartbroken.

Fast forward four years. St Swithens Day...

Em and Dex, relative strangers, meeting only at weddings of mutual friends, awkwardly. Emma's no longer geeky, is coming into her own. Dexter is sober, has a fiancé, and a baby (pending). They miss each other. They gravitate back towards each other.

Fast forward four years. St Swithens Day...

Em and Dex, best friends... Emma's living in Paris, an author. She's dating. A ruined (wife left him for his friend) but hopeful (he's coming to claim her) Dexter arrives in Paris. Emma has always been the chaser, now she's the chasee. But there's no denying it, she's only ever loved Dexter.

Fast forward four years. St Swithens Day...

Em and Dex, TOGETHER! Emma's married. Dexter's married. Emma's married to Dexter. Life is finally as it should be. Their futures are one. Big plans.

Then Emma dies.

Yup. Hit off her bike by a lorry. FML

Dexter chases her shadow around every place they've ever been, needing to feel her. He's lost. But this time Emma isn't there to help him find himself again. A world without Em is unknown to Dex. The only sense he can make of the world, is his daughter, Jasmine.

Dex and Jasmine... Dexter's world (with an Emma-Morley-shaped-hole) goes on.

Sunday, 26 October 2014

Jane Eyre - Charlotte Brontë


Jane is an outcast in her own home. Family cast her out, so she learns to survive relying on no one. 

Fate brings her to be governess for the little Adèle at Thornfield Hall, where she meets the dark brooding Mr Rochester. Souls entwine and secrets and misunderstandings threaten to pull apart those that were intended.

Fires, madness, untold histories, society expectations, loyalties and a certain inevitability rounds this classic up into its quiet, dark and final conclusion.

Heroines in literature will rise and fade. Jane Eyre will survive them all.

The Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad



Jungle. Whites mistreating the natives. Nothing uncommon there! What is wrong with the white man?! 

Feeling of smothering from the jungle, growing hatred for the company of the narrator, the captain of the steamer.

Kurtz - the mysterious voice of Kurtz.

Highlighted almost the whole of the last chapter - humanity, love, darkness.

Emma - Jane Austen


Emma is sweet, Emma is well meaning, Emma is kind. Emma is also emotionally blind, a meddler and generally wrong.

Emma's heart is in the right place. In her unwanted match-making she misunderstands intentions, hearts and glances. She makes and breaks the expectations of friends and un-does all that Cupid has set in motion. 

She is the anti-Cupid. 

Emma should not be allowed to matchmake. She is trying too hard to listen to the desires of the hearts of others to hear her own heart screaming out his name.

The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald



The great Gatsby - the great known unknown. Everybody knows Gatsby, but no-one does. 

Lavish parties held night after night at his (no expense spared) house. 

He is mysterious. He is powerful. He is rich. Everyone has a grand Gatsby story. Everybody loves him. He loves but one... Daisy. His love for years. All this is for Daisy.

Trouble is Daisy has all but forgotten about Gatsby and has married Tom.

The green light across the water torments Gatsby as he feels her closeness compounded by her absolute distance.

Impossibility becomes close to reality and Gatsby almost gets his girl back... If he had only controlled his tongue... and his yellow car.

Gatsby is buried watched only by one friend. All those who professed a love for him blindly ignore his passing, or that he ever was.. Noone really knew Gatsby... Except all us fine readers!!

Fantastic book - an even more amazing movie... Especially if you see it in Jakarta! 

Wizard's First Rule - Terry Goodkind



Wizards. Good. Evil. Barriers between magical worlds. Impending doom. Truths. Lies. Friendships. Disloyalties. Bravery. Foolishness. Endurance. Responsibility. Love. Love. Love. Courage. Belief. Destiny.

Eleven Minutes - Paulo Coelho



Maria is a prostitute. Maria is a woman. Maria is a human. Maria is living. 

This is a story about (believe it or not) love.

Maria flees home to look for adventure and the elusive and much yearned for success. It seems she is driven at first to appear successful to impress the folk back home.

The independence she gains in Switzerland makes her grow up and in the midst of a soulless life of three men a night, she meets her love.

Pain, freedom, love, necessity, ambition and sacrifice are all explored... Yet essentially it is about love. 

The caged bird is my favourite part. Freedom is the key - never try to change your love. He is who he is and that's why she loves him. 

Let him fly and watch him flourish and come back ❤❤❤ love this bit!!

Wuthering Heights - Emily Brontë



Cathy and Heathcliff - greatest love story ever told? Amazing work Emily Brontë - so dark and atmospheric. You could actually feel the hatred between the characters. A destructive love, the effect of which ripples down through to the next generation and kills almost everyone in its path. Ghosts, evil, madness(?), illness, death and the moors. Don't forget those moors - they seem like sirens tempting people to their death. 

Loved it. Can't believe someone so young wrote it and that she died before having the chance to write a second book! Both her and Charlotte write beautifully - Emily is more dark. Anne I have yet to encounter!! She is sitting patiently on my bookshelf calling for me to pick her up and let her enchant me.

Great Expectations - Charles Dickens

     


Pip. Unsatisfied with his lot seeks adventure in London as a gentleman. His love interest is spiked by the mean spirited Estella at Miss Haversham's house. Whilst ignoring Biddy the pretty, mild mannered child friend/teacher of his youth. 

I'm at end of vol one at the moment and believe his mysterious benefactor to be Biddy. 

Pip is proud and his ashamedness has got in the way of his most valued friendship with Joesph. Silly. Billy. Pip. 

Watch what money and airs and graces can't bring you... I have a sneaky feeling you shall find out in vol 2 and spend vol 3 trying to repair whatever damage you do to those most valued to you. Ditch the posh girl and open your eyes!!! She's right THERE!! 

Ok, so, my 'Biddy is Pip's benefactor' theory is blown straight out of the water! The convict! Wow, didn't see that one coming!! But I was right that it wasn't Havisham - it couldn't have been what with her hatred for all things male! 

Pip has finally realised he has treated Joe and Biddy like poo. Well Pip, now is the time to lie in that bed that you've made for yourself.... 

On to the final volume of Pip's expectations....

Well, how wrong could I have been?! Biddy was Joe's, and Estella, following her step down from her high horse, was in fact Pip's all along! The old Miss Haversham's cold heart melted when she realised what she had inflicted on poor Pip's heart.

Alls well that ends well I guess :)